Lavender

“I have tried to be as eclectic as I possibly can with my professional life, and so far it’s been pretty fun.” – Roland Barthes

Much of the morning was spent dreaming about lavender…

Well, baby, what I couldn’t do
With plenty of money and you.
In spite of the worry that money brings.
Just a little filthy looker buys a lot of things.
And I could take you to places that you would like to go.
But outside of that, I’ve no use for dough.
It’s the root of all evil,
Of strife and upheaval.
But I’m certain, honey, that life would be sunny
With plenty of money and you.

 

A call last night brightened me so much, I fell asleep with a little smile of wonder on my lips and a dream so sweet I could not remember. Sweet lavender.

I only knew that when I woke up, the weekend and the depression was gone and I begun thinking about looking forward again. About changing things from the way they are. About trying harder. About that new inquiry report. About dreams and favourite people and scones with clotted cream.

Even reading reports in the train seemed like a lighter task.

And today’s talk by Shane Tregellis on market conduct thrilled me so much, I think it is simply my favourite topic and he’s one of my favourite speakers on the financial regulation course so far (besides Ser Jin). Somehow I get excited when he talks about the legal roots of market conduct and the case study on infrastructure funds (what I had initially thought was a boring and dry topic) turned out to be simply fascinating and had been running to download prospectuses to try to do the skeletal analysis he demonstrated with ease. The way he broke down the topic, discussed his thoughts in a macro unique fashion, gave me some little epiphanies like Mokal’s insolvency law classes (though Mokal is more brilliant, who can ever surpass Mokal!) Yes, he made me terribly proud to be in market conduct!

In many ways, admitably market conduct was instinctively an area I have always been drawn to. Regulation with Rick Rawlings (especially his brilliant, brilliant inaugural lecture) was one of those unforgettable topics where his crazy spaggetthi organization diagrams still inspire me today. I feel sorry that I did not appreciate his tutorials initially and that I came to realize his true brilliance so late, but he is one of those lecturers I really grew to respect and appreciate.

Each time I heard Shane mention familiar phrases like ‘Braithwaite’s pyramid’ and quotes I know by heart, I had a little happy leap of recognization and it gave me so many new perspectives about the role of Enforcement. The issues which the various teams in Market Conduct deal with have so many layers and implications it does make for meaningful work and structured analysis.

Perhaps, if I later get disillusioned and bored with my inquiry reports, give me a little jab, and remind me of the Barthes quote. I will remember then, that the issues go deeper then I always think. “WWMD?” ==> What would Mokal do? Or “WWDD?” ==> What would Donald (my previous boss at the financial newsletter) do?

Tomorrow S, R and I have something exciting planned — Converse Day Out! In junior college, we were always dedicated Converse shoe wearers, and I actually had five pairs all in different shades of blue haha…

Since then, I have only heels in the cupboard…which means I can only fit into S’s sz 9s….and I refuse to wear his sz 9s…

S and R are amongst two of my favourite old theatre studies’ pals, and they have fed some of the most beautiful memories that I have of junior college. They are my eclectic dreamers, and the sort you think of in the midst of a wild, reckless impulse in a secret hour of the morning.

Cross fingers…for I don’t know how much I have changed to return to the past impulsive but beautiful conversations…

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